remember to believe in yourself
Hi, my name is Brooke and I'm bad at the in-between.
I had my last day of work before I leave for Prague and now I'm staring at this long week of waiting, as I am, quite literally, in-between jobs and in-between homes. It's in these moments that I feel self-doubt come creeping in and the all-too-familiar imposter syndrome tries to take hold, saying things like, "you don't deserve this,"or, "you're going to fail," or, "they shouldn't have picked you." When those doubts creep in, it can feel crippling and I know I'm not alone. I've had oh-so-many friends say this happens to them when they have a lull in life and are about to move onto their next big thing.
Forget that noise. Forget all of it right this second. You deserve the best of everything you work hard for. I busted my butt to go back to Prague and I'm so excited about it I could cry. I have been dreaming of this day since I came home from studying abroad and know in my heart that I'm going back for a reason. When I dream about going home, I dream about Prague, so why would I ever doubt that I'm going exactly where I'm supposed to be?
Acknowledging this internal struggle was a difficult thing for me (who actually likes to admit that they're bad at something?), but doing so has empowered me to take steps to fix it. I know those negative voices have a habit of creeping in so I've found ways to be good to myself. I work out regularly. I eat healthy foods. I surround myself with positive people. I take time to do things I enjoy like reading and hanging out outside. But the best advice I got this season has come from Grandma Alice, when I was explaining how I was feeling. Across the dining room table, she looked at me with a smile and said, "I think you need to remember to believe in yourself." And that stuck with me. I wouldn't be doing this if I wasn't capable, ready or willing. I've done the work. All that is left is to take the leap.
Friends, no matter what in-between you're in right now, remember: You are ready. You are strong. You were made to do hard things. You're going to come out on the other side closer to who you were created to be. And if that's not worth the struggles of the in-between, I don't know what is.